Stress

The worst time of year to do any thinking is at this time. I usually try to leave all the thinking alone til after all the schoolwork and exams are done, but this time it seems NOW is when I need to make the most decisions or think and analyze things. I have been thinking so much about all my realtionships lately. It's so hard near the end of the year to keep trying to maintain the friendships that you have here. After 2 weeks who knows how often I am going to be seeing these people, I just want to concentrate on my work or other stuff and not work at the friendships, but I know now is one of the most important time to have friends. And it is very important to make new friends too, which I have been working on, and thoroughly enjoying.

One of the big things I have recongized in myself this semester, partialy becuase people pointed out, is just the fact that I have stepped out of my comfort zone a bit more. I asked God last semester or at the beginning of this semester to help me to do that so that I could further his kingdom....Thailand!!! Different things that I have done or thought about doing even is so not what I would have done before and I know that I am only doing it now because God has encouraged me and given me the strength and I am so thankful for it. I am becoming the person that I have always wanted to be and the person I think God wants me to be too. Thailand is a huge step for me, who knows what will happen there? Who will I meet? Maybe going on this missions trip will help me to see a different calling on my life from what I had anticipated.

One thing I wish I was more gifted in was the theological area of the church and Christianity. I know the basics, but I have a paper due on Friday on a statement of faith of a cult compared to a statement of faith of orthodox Christianity. I am dreading starting it just cuz I don't knwo much about that. I know there's research and everything, but still.

But anyways, I thank God everyday that I am here. Making new friends, hanging out with old ones, learning things beyond what I ever thought I would study at school, growing closer to God and learning new things about him all the time. Anyways, I am so thankful I came back for a second year at school here. It has been long, but I have grown so much! So thanks be to God! :)