So hello all you out there...As you can see from my title, things aren't going so great. I am kinda down in the February slumps. We have had beautiful weather, but sometimes that just doesn't do it!
Last Thursday in Chapel I was finding it really hard to meet with God. And then we had this speaker that was horrible and he totally just discouraged everyone instead of building us up, so it really sucked. Ever since then I have done things I shouldn't have and I don't know, things are going down hill. Yesterday I got my outline for my midterm tomorrow and I looked it over, and I didn't know anything on it, so I got mad and chucked it across the room and then I went around my room and threw everything around. I cried, and then I had a nap, and then my friend came in and cuddled with me. I felt better after the nap but still not great. A really weird thing happened during my nap though. So Grace came into my room and shea sked if she could pray over the room because alot of the girls had been having dreams of like demonic things and stuff liek that. So she prayed and then we were talking. And I remembered just before I went to sleep I thought someone had come into my room, liek it felt like someone was watching me right over my shoulder and it was like I could feel them there. And I didnt' look cuz I was scared and didn't want to move, but then a little while later it was gone and everything was back to normal. So it kinda freaked me out. But then last night I prayed for a really long time just wanting Jesus to come have a sleepover with me cuz I was so scared and I needed to have him near. And he did and so it was good and comforting, I had a good sleep.
Today just started out brutal, I had theory and we are learning such hard stuff right now and I didn't understand anything we learned today! And then I was just in kinda a bad mood and people in the class were bugging me, and then I had choir. And everyone was just so annoying, the boys never stop talking and the piano player kept messing up and messing everyone else up. I love all the people there but today they were just relaly getting on my nerves. And so I just went back to my room after that and cried! I bawled. And then I wrote 2 songs, so i guess it was ok. But I just had so much bitterness and anger today and it wasn't cool. But I was actually speaking my mind which is good to do and helpful also. So I am praying hard that I will be close with God again and just get over this slump i'm in. Plus my car isn't fixed yet, and I need to find rides to the ferry this weekend to visit mom and dad, and I have a midterm tomorrow, quiz on Thursday, Songwriting on Monday-saturday! So it is going ot be busy and I get no spring break :(. So i guess I would like prayer for this....
Anyways, just thought I would give you the update. Thank you foryour prayers. I love all of you alot! :)
Leia
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